I read somewhere that there are two ways of holding on.
I think it’s true for writing too.
I’ve been holding onto my writing like this for a long time.
I grip tightly and don’t let go. I keep at it. When the responses to my writing are positive and hopeful, I keep writing. When they are a lot less than that, I keep writing. I push myself and I don’t stop, because if I do let go then it’ll fall out of my fingers.
But now I’m tired. My motivation and inspiration is fading. Confidence too. I lack the flexibility to let my writing take its own shape.
I’m sure it’s not just the writing. It’s tiring trying to hold on to everything these days.
I’m fortunate in so many ways. I get to take a break from writing and everything else for the next short while. If I have ideas, I’ll note them down. If not, I won’t.
Letting go for a little while will be good.
When I get back, I’ll pick up the writing and everything else again, but this time I’ll try to hold on without gripping too tightly, without fear of everything slipping out from between my fingers.
I’ll try to hold on and let go at the same time.